06-22-03 - 6:21 am
when you base your whole identity on reaction against somebody it�s the same as being in--i tend to forget when i drink. i�m doing it again i think--a hand to hold, an ego to flatter, �cause you were the wineskin, i was the bladder. time passes, events fall away (i don�t think they�ll hurry). hurry up, i�m blacking out, high on the vapor, �cause i was the typo, you were the liquid paper. talk it over, talk it, overtalk it. the answer�s still the same: it�s discontent, humiliation, �cause you were the theme and i was the variation. try to take a less dramatic course of action; this attraction-introspection-diction predilection is breaking my heart again.
donoughts. milk. stuffed alice rabbits. her chipped nail polish. watched her sleep for 2 hours while leonardo fought the moustache. tickling till neither can breathe. playing in playgrounds with little kids and forgetting my keys. kissing my shoulder because shes the right height. going at 8 in the morning to see her hair cut off. giving her a coke and sour worms and a skateboard and blockbuster movies for breakfast. she hurries to check stupid people out to put her eyes over the wall and grin all big. carrying her to her car while she kisses the back of my neck. her lips are always cold. kissing her arm pits. fetus hair. drawing of us on a couch. girl in finding nemo.
i have a pen
its written everything
if i mail it
will you please just read
all the fine print
its a contract from me
it is official
there is no money
just my word
and my wish to see
your inchanting smile
and your model feet
love is a trial
this is my plea
crime to be happy
im found guilty
she is my amy
taste your jealousy
being able to breathe is always a plus.
